Who I am? Someone asked this on social media the other day and I really had to think about the answer. They wanted to know who I was besides being a mom. Most of the ladies suggested they were “just moms” but they were okay with that. I did fall into that category as well. But then I started thinking about it.
Emma and Rose, “Who was I before kids?” Well, I was me. Did I stand out in a crowd? No. Was I living a passionate and fulfilling life? Not especially. I was happy, I enjoyed my life and my time, but even then nothing defined “me.” Sure, I was a reader, and I loved music and concerts (and I still do), but that hasn’t [...]
I’ve been through my fair share of struggles. I’m not someone who has always had a voice or had the strength to talk about my struggles.
For over a decade I suffered in silence of fear that I was weird and too different, that I was a freak and someone who had a “problem.” Yes, I suppose I do have a problem. I struggle daily with crippling anxiety and depression.
I don’t struggle in just the winter or just when I’ve had a “rough” day. I struggle to sometimes know my purpose. I struggle to know why God put me on this planet. I wonder who would miss me if I was gone. This isn’t a “normal” way to live and to be completely honest it’s awful.
Now don’t get me wrong, my husband and I love him very much. After a long struggle with infertility, a tumultuous first trimester that resulted in two trips to the ER (once via ambulance) and an emergency c-section, we often refer to him as our miracle baby, our fighter.
And true to his determination to be a fighter, he is incredibly headstrong. One day I’m sure his headstrong personality will make him a leader.
But when he’s throwing a fit because I put his apple juice in the wrong cup, it makes him a jerk.
Take yesterday for example.
For lunch, I made a beautiful chicken salad packed with fruit and nuts and healthy as can be. I served with [...]
I’m a frugal person by nature.
I come by it honestly; it’s in the genes as they say.
I like to save my money, and I love a good sale. Making large purchases can be difficult for me.
When I found out I was pregnant, my thoughts turned to my wardrobe. Clearly, my normal wardrobe would not carry me through my pregnancy. I needed to have clothes that would accommodate my growing body.
Initially, my view on maternity clothes was this:
“I don’t want to spend much money on maternity clothes because I’ll only be wearing them for a short time.”
Sound familiar? It’s a common viewpoint when considering maternity clothes.
It’s true – you only wear [...]
I’m not a picky, or high-maintenance person. But when it comes to receiving gifts, especially on the one day of the year meant for me (Mom), I do have a few mild suggestions. Requests, rather, on things I definitely do not want for Mother’s Day.
No Projects Now, some people find zen in DIY crafts. And occasionally, I do enjoy breaking out some pastel paint, and transforming an old end table into something girly and pretty. But, this also requires careful planning and time. All the while maneuvering around household chores, work, and child-rearing. Unless it’s something you know I really enjoying doing on my own, please don’t give me something [...]
A couple of days ago, we packed up the boys and decided to take full advantage of the 70 degree January South Carolina weather by going out to the river. It had been a couple of weeks since we had gotten to go out there, and this momma was missing her angel baby. For those of you that don’t know, our third son was stillborn this past October, and we buried him out at our favorite place with a sweet little magnolia tree.
Whenever we go out there, the first thing I always do is go visit Baby James’ little magnolia tree. I usually water the tree and sit for a spell– catching him up on what his brothers have been up to that week and such.
Usually I [...]